Life has been tough lately. I feel like I say that way too much. You're probably on the journey just like me. We always have some goal, and we don't even know when we make it there, but we do. And because we already get to the next checkpoint, we're so worried about the next goal. You know what I mean? One thousand dollars? Then you make ten thousand, then a hundred thousand? And maybe someday, maybe even a million. We're always on that chase, and we're always going to want more and more.
Let's talk about things that matter, like your relationship with God or your marriage, even besides money. I'm kind of happy with the way things turned out for me. They could be better, but they also could be worse. I experienced everything I wanted to experience. Well, maybe not everything, but for the most part, I got out of life with small, mini goals that any young teenager would have in the 21st century. It all seems so meaningless sometimes, right? Because at the end of the day, you have you to yourself. And I don't mean that you're physically alone, but spiritually, we are.
When was the last time somebody checked up on you? Be honest with yourself. That's what I do when I make these little blogs, which might be spam to some people or just another reminder of who you used to know and who you used to hang out with. Nothing exists, not the future, not the past. All we have is now. It hurts knowing that you must move on and live without those friends you thought your life depended on. I don't know how it feels to be independent, even though I feel like I claim to be self-made independent. I don't think I am now that I think about it.
We all rely on some boss, right? For example, I just got banned on eBay again. They banned me almost every week; before this ban, they banned me four years ago. I'm kind of lucky to be on the platform. And you might say, like, who cares? Like, dude, what's so crucial about eBay? Well, for starters, people like me have issues, and because of these issues, we don't have jobs, or we don't get work. And since we don't have that way to meet financial goals, we must rely on selling a product or service.
But after today, you know, I was looking at my bank account, and I don't feel any different. I've seen it say 100,000, negative 400 dollars, $400, and 0. It all feels like we sell our souls at the end of the day. But I want you to think differently now. I want you to get the most out of what you've made out of your life. Nothing is too small. Everything is a win. You don't know that the person who hurt you the most might have been the best thing to ever happen to you. I mean, even Jesus is needed, Judas. Jesus knew that he was going to be betrayed by his best friend. He knew it as he still treated him like family.
He told Peter, you'll deny me three times before the sun rises. And there's your friends telling you they'll always have your back. Your friends tell you that they will always be by your side. Your beloved one tells you they'll love you forever and care for you in sickness and health.
And you love to hear it because it sounds nice. It does sound nice. I like the sound of it. Period. But is it reality? Because what's reality to me is that they're going to crucify me. And all I can do is forgive them. Imagine being the creator of something. Let's say, for example, a game.
You made this action video game, and you know you did everything you had to do to make it the best game on the market where everybody wants to play. There's multiplayer from all over the world. Imagine entering a room of the game you created, and somebody bans you, kicks you out, or says you are not allowed to be there. Somebody trash-talks you.
That's probably how God feels now that I think about it. Imagine creating you and then seeing what you do with what he created, the shit that we don't tell anybody. Damn, I'm not trying to make you feel guilty. But I've done a whole lot of shit that I have never uttered to another human being. Because I know they will look at me differently if I tell them even just an ounce of what happened that night. Hell yeah, I'm a shitty person. I probably don't say that. I probably think I'm righteous and follow the honor and G codes. And maybe I do, to an extent. But we all have that side of us that we don't tell anybody else, that face that we show nobody else. I just got off a meeting on Telehealth with my doctor, And I'm telling him I'm doing great. I feel fine and everything. Yeah, it works. I can't complain. But little dude, I'm not no one. I even think that he knows that. I'm fucking full of shit.
But you have to remember, I'm a man. And because I'm a man, I'm not allowed to display any stress or anything that suggests I'm phased. Never Let A Hard Time Humble Us. That's what Nipsey said. The music video you watch shows how Lauren London acts as his carrier for his marijuana distribution business. In the beginning, he's over here selling a one-ounce bag of marijuana, and he has a girl who is Laura London. As she plays the character, she realizes like you know what fuck this guy? Why am I doing this for this guy? He's selling bags of weed. Why do I need this guy in my life? I don't need him; I'm out of here. And then five or ten years pass by. She's married, not to Nipsey, but she married someone else. A rich guy, perhaps.
She's dressed so lovely because she has to sell the mansion she lives in with the guy she married. And who's the buyer? Who's buying the mansion she sells because they can no longer afford it? I don't think I have to answer that question. And if I do, forgive me. How about you see it yourself? Right here, right now.
And that's what my newsletter is for you today. I don't need to bring you any local news or bad news that we always get. I'm sure you see it anyway. At the beginning of this article, I told you everything seems so small, right?
It's like we make so little and work so much. That's why I'm telling you. It's time to double up. And I don't know how that looks for you, but it could look several ways. Just know that you stick to it. You're going to get there.
But you have to stick to it—no matter who leaves your side or who you lose in this fight. They're going to be there still. And they're going to wish they never left you. And you can say, that’s cute, take care. And that's my favorite part of this video when Lauren London returned her character from the movie ATL.
You all remember her name, Nunu. And that's how Nipsey got introduced to her. And he said I bet you she will be my girl one day.
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